The Lost Smile
- Writers Pouch
- Mar 28, 2021
- 7 min read
Updated: Dec 21, 2025
Can you tell me one thing which you desperately want in life? I want to live. Yes, I want to live no matter how tough things get, and I like the strength to face my hurdles. I know time tests us with everything it has, and it shall not stop at anything, but I learnt we should never give up, even if it costs us everything.
By the way, I’m Vani, and I’m with such firm convictions because I was stuck in a phase for a long time, and it took me everything to come out of it.
Life had never been the same after we parted ways. Even in the most beautiful times, I felt nothing. Even when everything was as I expected, I never even tried to appreciate it. Three years have passed, and yet my heart still retreats to him. Even on the busiest of days, my mind is clouded in his thoughts, his scent, and his smile; they still make my heart flutter. His presence not only makes me nervous but also makes me do stupid things, and even now, years later, nothing changed.
From all the walks, laughter, warm hugs, passionate kisses, leaning shoulders, held hands, to everything vanishing, here I am, sitting in the dark, crowded in my thoughts. I am stuck, and every time I try to move forward, I recall my actions... deeds I have never committed before and acts that cannot be undone. They stay right within me, and I have to make peace with myself about my recklessness. Though this realisation often rips me apart, I knew I had to pick myself up for better or worse.
